Away Too Long

It would be great if I could tell you I was kidnapped by aliens, in a coma, or fell off the face of the earth.  I find all of those acceptable excuses for why I left this space in April with every intention of returning in just a few days, and then a few more days, and then next week, and then...well, then turned into four months.  My weekly "to do" list, which I keep in a notebook shows that every week I intended to update my blog.  It's just something wonderful, that truly required my full attention, happily, gratefully got in the way.

I started my own business.

Whew.  There I said it.  I am not sure why it feels like a confession, but it sure does.  I had never set out to own my own business.  I am happy to work with and for others.  I had never dreamed about legal filings, payment ledgers, labor laws and yet they have become my mainstays recently.

What I did say, when it became abundantly clear to me that a life in the restaurant business for which I had trained would require sacrifices in my marriage I was unwilling to make, is that I wanted to teach more yoga.  It turns out the universe is quite an abundant place.  As soon as I said it, and meant it, an amazing opportunity to run my own yoga studio presented itself.  And so that is what I am doing here.

My blogging absence  is evidence of how I have thrown myself into this wonderful task.  Not only am I able to teach more yoga, but I also get to work with other yoga teachers who help me become a better teacher and student every day.  I encounter yoga students of all stripes, bringing their energy and focus to their mats, and I am privy to their endeavors.  I am so very lucky.  I feel so very blessed.

Truly, I should not be saying I started my own business.  Brian and I started a business.  I could not have done it without him, without the support of family and friends, and without the one yoga student of mine who hatched the idea and believed in my ability to bring it to fruition.   The whole experience has been pretty darn wonderful and I cannot wait to meet more new students, witness the progress of current students, and see where this leads. 

I know, though, that a life of one volition, lacks balance.  Not only have I  been absent from this space, but I have been absent from my own kitchen, my own recipe testing, my own culinary passions.  I have felt this absence and slowly I am trying to ingratiate myself.  However, at this time, I don't have much to offer.  My breakfast staple has been toast with apricot preserves and two slices of Manchego cheese.  It's delicious, but I doubt you need a recipe to replicate it.  A photograph shows you all you need to know:

I hope to return, and be more of a presence, in the near future.  For now, though, it's back to the yoga studio, as both student and teacher.